“Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.
DEVOTION – MAY 26, 2019
I recently watched a movie about time travel that left me asking myself what I would change about my life if I could go back and have a do-over. My thoughts then went to one of the most difficult seasons of my adult life.
It was February 2017. My son, Trey, was having weird pain that was initially diagnosed as a kidney stone. Weeks went by and he was no better. A blood clot was finally discovered in his left renal vein. After his diagnosis, we faithfully followed the careful protocol laid out for us by his doctors. Weeks went by and the blood clot was shrinking, but the pain that led to the diagnosis wasn’t.
By September, he was cleared entirely of the clot. And yet his pain persisted. And persisted. And persisted.
We sought out doctor after doctor, treatment after treatment, always having hope that the next doctor or the next treatment would offer the key, the cure, the answer–and yet none came.
Then came the phone call from the doctor who told us that we were out of options. It was time to either take drastic actions or travel to Minnesota to the Mayo Clinic and go through their battery of tests.
We decided to go to the Mayo Clinic and it eventually led us to attend a month-long Pain Rehab Clinic (PRC) with him.
At PRC, we were all educated on the tenets we had to follow to manage his pain, but we also were immersed in this education with 15 other families that had found themselves there by walking a road similar to ours. These families became our tribe. They were gifts to us. Maybe they were the gift of the entire yearlong, horrific, nightmarish journey.
So, as I thought about if I would go back and change that year, I had to answer, “no.” Although I’d begged God to stop the pain–physically and emotionally–of our son and our family, he didn’t. At least not on my timeline.
Honestly, I’d had a pretty charmed life up to this event.
When I read Job 2:10, it wrecked me.
“Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” In all this, Job did not sin in what he said. -Job 2:10
I cannot doubt God’s goodness or existence or love just because I’m experiencing trouble.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. -James 1:17
If I believe he gives “good” to me, I must also accept that sometime “bad” comes my way as well. None of us get to be exempt from it.
Thy will be done. And please give me peace regardless of what that is.
Pastor of Marriage and Family
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